19 - Whispers

The door creaks shut, thickening the silence
Two perspectives dance throughout the room
Both grasping for the other, their foundations unknown
In the heart of this room, truth is born
The swish of the whispers gathers outside these walls
It’s the same one point of view that’s always looking to be two
As they search for another, their minds come unglued
Bonded by these biased opinions, their malice renewed
But, the square of our circle is comforting in our sights
With this bed we’ve made we look to our lives
We created this place, where reality lays
It keeps us safe from the whispers
It keeps opinions at bay
It keeps our life on track
As we attack each day
It builds these walls thicker
For our lives to safely play
From the heart of this room
We watch the whispers fade away

Caution and the Wind

Her eyes dance in the brilliant reflection
The reflection of what she used to be
A softness creeps purposefully across my face
And It approaches so carefree… appeasingly
Alone it faces me, completely at ease
So I welcome its earnestness
I welcome the peace.
I welcome this feeling that her eyes perceive
I’ve lived every day for the moment
Past and future never played in this play
And as the ease she puts me in engulfs me
My future is now so important to see
For the first time in my life I have hoped for tomorrow
As caution and the wind dance away
For every moment she seizes my sanity
As...
My solace lies in those eyes, sleeps in her mind
And breaths by the life that she leads.

The Mask and My Mind.

The mask and my mind are two in the same
One makes the rules, the other plays the games
As your eyes lay the concrete around my swollen feet
I struggle for balance; I’m so weak in the knees
I know what I want, yet I need to wear what fits
I can’t be a cloud on your decisions, nor a weight on your risks
I know what I want and I know what you need
Again the mask and my mind they both disagree
So I stand here so proud for the time that was spent
And I model my future on the feelings you meant
The mask and my mind they’d love to stay and play
And even though it feels so right,
I know for you I need to walk away.

Echo

Another sleepless night is sleeping
My mind wanders, I'm smiling without dreaming
I hear an echo that I just can't place
Bouncing back and forth and it leaks.
It leaks a happiness that I have yet to dissect
From an uninhibited emotion that these pills mix up
There's no question left to ask
There's no answer left to find
Yet this echo takes shape and its taking what's mine
It's letting me know that what we feel is right
And it's your voice that plays safely in the blinding light
So as we do this dance from the dawn of life
With no questions left to ask
With no answers left to find
We both hang onto this moment as it slips through time

A Year Ago Today

A year ago… not today

Sitting in the same place

Looking at life the same way

Instinct grabbed a hold of the reins

Whisked my past away with pleasant pain

Woke me up, stood me up, and went away

I wonder why I was what I wasn’t.

I wasn’t what I always wanted to be

An elaborate excuse wearing my face

Made unusual mistakes, then made them ok

Played little games with my life, then walked away

Dangling sticky little strings to get in the way

Holding myself back on purpose, just to play the game

A year ago… was a lot like today

Except I know where I’ve been and I know who I am

Staring right at my future

As my past fades away.

14 - Lying for Change

Insides are rattling
Sweat seeps through my skin
I feel so passionate
I'm not so sure where to begin
I know I can make a difference
Bring some structure to their crumbling faces
But who's gonna listen?
They ask you for a donation
A deposit to their betterment
But I get no satisfaction out of empty promises
I'm hands on, like my hands on the wood that builds your shelter
Like my hands holding the spoon to your baby's mouth
But things will never change, it's made too hard to help
Ill keep throwing my coins in the fountain
You'll keep lying for change.

13 - Hope

My minds so tired
Hope is sleeping with motivation
Her feet unencumbered with grief
Lying in the sands of monotony
No need to search for peace
Scribble scrabble thoughts
Scribble scrabble time
She cheats with procrastination
Scribble scrabble Mind
Uncovers his desires, Hope makes him choose a sign
Scribble scrabble dreams come true
When Hopes the starting line
My minds so tired
I can’t convince myself to care
I’ve stopped searching for answers
Hope’s never gotten me anywhere